New Delhi: “to hell and return.” That’s how 25 years old Sundar Singh Gurjar described his life’s journey in the last five years.
The potential gold mealist in Rio Paralympics 2016, Sundar saw his dream dream when he missed an event in an unfavorable state.
He missed a mandatory roll call before throwing and not permitted.
What happens is a chaotic trip.
A depressive battle and further encouragement to end life.
But the Sundar rose back from what he called “The Abyss”.
Today, he saw the redemption in Tokyo Paralympics, where he would lead India’s hopes in the discus throwing the F46 category along with Devendra Jhjhariah, by chance of the golden winner in Rio (63.97m).
“My world is upside down with what happened in Rio.
I just can’t accept it.
I went there after throwing the javelin to 68.42m and sure he would win gold,” Gurjar Toi said from Tokyo.
“It was a big setback.
I thought my life returned to the lane after losing my hand in an accident a year ago.
I have done an attempt to just Rio.
But it’s Jolt destroying me.” Gurjar was a man who changed when he returned home empty-handed.
He closed himself from all over the world.
Toi remembered contact Gurjar immediately after His incident, but the athlete was very suspicious that he later refused to discuss what was wrong.
“I went into depression.
I don’t feel like holding Javelin anymore.
Life is not the same.
The purpose of my life is gone.
I have suicidal thoughts.
My coach is very worried that he will follow me like a shadow wherever I go.
He is worried I will End my life.
“Gurjar said things walked like that for some time before his coach gradually managed to convince him to visit the nearest playground.
“I will go and sit there for hours.
Slowly, I feel the need to get out of this hole.” So when the Athletics World Championship in London happened next year, Gurjar’s name entered.
“It’s hard to believe that I participated in the show without much practice.
I went there and won gold.” It changed everything to Gurjar, forever.
He actively participated in more events and won more awards – including a gold medal in Javelin, a discus and shots included in the IPC Athletics Grand Prix in Dubai in December 2017, and Arjuna award in 2019.
With the event scheduled for Monday Gurjar said he would be more careful this time.
“I have matured a lot in the last five years.
It won’t happen again.” And what did he hope to achieve in Tokyo? “I am happy with my current form and the way I threw.
I have worked doubled.
Now I just want to win a medal and remove the dark chapter in my life forever.”